Inner miracles

If "The decapitated tradition" (see below) articulates how I feel 95% of the time, this quote from Saul Bellow's Humboldt's Gift sums up how I feel the other 5%.

Maybe America didn't need art and inner miracles.  It has so many outer ones.  The USA was a big operation, very big.  The more it, the less we.  So Humboldt behaved like an eccentric and a comic subject.  But occasionally there was a break in his eccentricity when he stopped and thought.  He tried to think himself clear away from this American world . . .